Now that things have turned out this way. I can only say I don't regret it. And if I had a second chance, I would still tell you the truth again and tell you how much you have hurt me.

When I saw your text today, I knew you couldn't understand. And you never will. Because people like you are meant to be happy. Meant to live for that shot of happiness that lasts you through your happily ever after. And me? I only hurt myself from all these addictions and emptiness.

Maybe it was because I realise we were fundmentally different. Meant to live different lives. Meant to hurt differently. The cause of death and the dead. I think that was why I didn't break down again. Because I knew you can't be the one for me. Someone like you who never felt emptiness or how happiness feels so much better with pain can never understand this massive blackhole up here.

So I let you think that your anger is justified. I realise how much damage i had done. And I watch you hate me, fear me, and loathe me. Because thats how people like you ultimately do. I let you push me away and I let the pain eat away at me. Because that was the way I was supposed to live. Forever hurting. Haunted and afraid.

I watch how you replace me with other people and I realise that I was never ever ever as important as you say I am or you think I am. You drowned me in your inconsideration. And then left me here to die. Funny how quickly you threw me away once you knew the truth.

You just lie to yourself and hope things would be better. And you will never realise that it's a lie. Because that's how you were born to feel and react. Your lies make you happy. And if you are happy it doesnt matter if I'm happy or not.
Because I'm no one to you. Or to anybody.

And so this is how it ends. My cheap shot at happiness.
It wasn't even worth a second glance.
Truth be told I'm not sure if it was even worth anything.