Goodbye.
Sunday, June 12, 2011, 10:54 PM
I'm terrified. Fucking scared out of my mind.Scared to live. But too afraid to die. I want someone to tell me that everything will be fine. For once, I don't want these words for others but myself. I want another reason to live. Another meaning to cling onto. Another purpose to continue breathing for. I want to feel loved without a glimmer of doubt. To be able to love without all these hate. And to be loved without hating. I want to stop waking up in the middle of the night, caught between emptiness, exasperation and despair. I want to be happy. I really do. But these words they fall short of anything. I lost my grasp of these words and it seems pointless to continue searching for reason here anymore. This may be the last time I'm writing here. Because writing has lost its purpose and meaning. This isn't the end. I hope. |
VICTORIA
I judge alot. I antagonize, evaluate and irritate.I am not perfect. I'm a train wreck, a breathtaking disaster. I'm the picture of misconfigured imperfection, the definition of chaos. I've got imperfection spilling from my open wounds. Don't acknowledge my rights, just dwell on the wrongs. Because the world around me is drawn ugly. By the end of the day, some of you will love me, some of you will hate me. and when it comes down to it, I dont mind which. as long as you're not in that mid-ground where you love me one minute and want to rip my head off the next. because if things are that way, I'll make you hate me through and through. Trust me, I can make you fly. Trust me, I'm full of lies. Ugly Obsessions.
Screamo. Metal. Hardcore. Alternative. Jrock. Drums. Guitar. Bass. Headphones.
Headbanging. Awesome people. Dimples. Guys with heartbreaking smiles. Acts of spotaneousity. Lyrics. Free-Writing. Dreams. Fiction. Poetry.
Silent nights. Adrenaline. Fear. Eyecandies. Tea. Pokemon. Danny Phantom. Teen Titans. Martin Mystery. Youtube.
Online shopping/drooling. Hoodies. T-Shirts. Jeans. Sneakers.
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