My mind is creating a desolate ensemble.

I have too many places to wander, but sometimes I wonder too much. I'm tired of pretending. I really dont want this anymore.

Senseless, worthless thats all I am to them. A mindless body with no life just like foetuses in formaldehyde.

Introduce me to this lunatic inside of you. This deception that is trust. Pretend with me. Colors are emerging from those awful shades of grey. Return to me, into my arms. Come close to hear my whispers, honey. And hold my magic tight.

Let's have a rendezvous to my insanity which keeps me up at night. An prelude to my personal demons.
Dearest you, I hope this letter never finds you.

Fragments of memories lost in the vastness of endless time only to be discovered now.
Your broken words only to be stumbled upon after a careless click. The desperation and desolation from your words broke my heart.

How did you felt at that time?

I would like to say I'm sorry, but sorry doesn't say enough. I lost grasp of you. Like a child losing grasp of his helium balloon. My words were lost in the midst of all the noise and music. My words have always failed you.

I admit it, I still think about those times when we had those awesome meetings. So I'll drown these memories until this bottle turns empty. And then I'll pray to God. Pray that these feelings end. Because I don't think I can take these sleepless dreams anymore.

I have always loved you. And I have always failed you.

Truth is, I wasn't there when you needed me. I could have been.
And I think I didn't bother to.



Goodbye Friendship. Hello Heartache.
Fuck me. Let me drink this night away.